For years blogging was a way for me to connect with people - my family, friends, even complete strangers. I didn't think twice about posting private information about myself. In fact it almost felt easier to discuss my life from the other side of cyber world because I still felt a certain sense of anonymity. Growth and technology are such an important part of our culture today, but it's almost sad how publicising your life through blogs and social networking can effect your life negatively. Now that I'm single and starting over I have to consider that potential friends, bosses, and partners can easily read information I've posted about myself over the years. There are even people now, due to horrible circumstances, that I don't neccesarily want following me around, digitally or otherwise. I never want this to completely deter me from staying social through this format but it's definitely something I consider every time I post.
Recently, I discussed my plans to move to Chicago. Since that day my life has twisted around and turned upside down. There have been many low moments for me and it's been a real struggle to maintain a even modicum of positivity. I cannot tell you how blessed I feel to have such a supportive group of family and friends. They have and continue to stand by and support me through everything - and believe me, I haven't always made it easy! In the last few weeks I have had to say goodbye to a family I love (my job as a nanny), move out of my apartment, and end a relationship I thought was forever. Not to mention all of the other day-to-day (and not so day-to-day) trials and tribulations I was facing. Essentially, my plans were completely tossed out the window. I had sold all of my furniture and boxed up all my belongings and had no idea what was next. People drown in much less, but shock of shocks I managed to tread water through it all. I started dealing with each issue one at a time, holding the hands of loved ones all along the way. They've given true meaning to the word "lifesaver".
So, what is Plan B, you may be wondering?
I am sad beyond belief that things didn't work out and I won't be moving to Chicago. I was looking forward to getting to know my family there better and seeing the city. I am grieving the end of my relationship. I know it is all a process and will take time.
I have decided to move to Atlanta, GA to go to school at the Savannah College of Art and Design. I'm still in the application process but I am confident that I will be accepted. I still need a change of scenery. I need time to heal and focus on myself. I have family in ATL, including my sister, Sarah, so I won't be completely on my own. I just hope my parent's don't take it personally that they just moved home from there a couple weeks ago! ;) I don't plan on being gone forever. I love Southern California and my heart lies here in the form of family, friends, and the Pacific Ocean. Above is the journey I intend to take. I'm doing the drive on my own which is something I feel is neccessary. I plan to post and check in with everyone along the way. I'll be making a few stops to visit people and hopefully do a few photo sessions. I've just added dates/locations to my Summer Special.. I'll be in St. Louis, MO Aug. 5 - 7, if you or anyone you know is interested.
And because every good post needs pretty pictures... here are some I took yesterday of my youngest sisters, Sarah and Jaydean. Enjoy! ♥